By: John Passaniti To: Fredric Rice Re: Christian cannibalism +gt; Yes, Christian cannibal

By: John Passaniti
To: Fredric Rice
Re: Christian cannibalism

 > Yes, Christian cannibalism is quite disgusting.  I suspect
 > that the practice of ritual symbolic cannibalism in
 > Christianity stems from the belief that if they eat their
 > gods, they can become like them.

     Funny, I found it strangely erotic.

     I grew up as a Roman Catholic, and went to a Roman Catholic school.  That
means I was constantly surrounded by icons of Christ on the cross.  At church
was the largest of these icons, featuring a larger-than-life Christ looking
down on the altar.

     Concurrent with this, I was beginning to come to terms with my sexuality.
And for the latter years in that Christ cult, the image of that semi-nude man
on the cross was increasingly fascinating to me.  The Christ icon we had
featured a very nicely proportioned man that was lovingly carved by someone who
had an eye for male anatomy.  The trace of clothing he had suggestively rippled
in just the right places.

     Anyway, for years I had been going to Mass, and had been enjoying the
bland flavor of the Eucharist.  But with the convergence of my understanding of
the "mystery" of the transsubstantiation along with coping with my sexuality, I
had a funny thought.

     Christ was the first man inside my mouth.

     Just think of it.  Here I am, an impressionable young boy looking up at a
icon of a nearly-naked man.  The priest stands before me.  I open my mouth.  He
places Christ in my mouth.  I slowly suck the wafer until it has dissolved,
leaving a funny taste in my mouth that lasts for an hour.

     It was Christ's body right?  Well, what part of his body? While I was
chowing-down on Jesus, was I really kissing his lips, or tickling his chest
with my tounge, or was I somewhere lower?

     My first sexual experience with another man wouldn't happen for several
years after I left that school.  Between those two events, I lost my faith,
started to accept a more rational stance in my life, and went on to free myself
of a few more shackles on my life-- most caused by my religious upbringing.

     I used to be a Roman Catholic, but thankfully, there was a cure.